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Today really "hen bu sun" arhhhhh!!!

Really pissed off by the late afternoon due to a lot of different issues. 

Sometimes I really do wish I can take a super duper long holiday and get away from all the "fan" things. Luckily tomorrow is Friday. Then it's Christmas holiday. It means Monday will be a public holiday, then I take Tuesday off, so total 4 days off. 

Yahoo!!! Looking forward for a relaxing holiday. 

Get mad by this article

I'm busy recently and will not be free until next week. So, in this very moment, imagine my temper when I saw this article. Stupid club!

Krtek - The Mole all the way from Prague!

Let me introduced: Krtek the Mole


Yippee!!! Mike bought me a magnet allllllllllllllll the way from Prague, Czech Republic. So cute, at first I thought it was a black penguin. Turn out it's actually a mole. This cartoon character is very famous at Czech.

Below is some introduction for Krtek:

The Mole (called Krtek or Krteček (diminutive) in the original) is an animated character in a series of cartoons, created by Czech animator Zdeněk Miler. It was first to be seen in 1956 in Prague, when Miler wanted to create a children's cartoon about how flax is processed. He wanted a strong Disney-influence to the cartoon by choosing an animal for the leading role, and decided to pick a mole after stumbling over a molehill during a walk. The first film called "Jak krtek ke kalhotkám přišel" ("How the mole got his pants") was released in 1956, and the cute main character won itself an enormous popularity in many Eastern European countries, Germany, Austria, and China. Production for further episodes started in 1963 and since then, around 50 episodes have been created.

After been back from Germany, now I appreciate the souvenir brought by other people. Before I went oversea, whenever someone bought me something, I always wonder, "what is it?" "what's so special about all these?"

But now I understand. It's called souvenir for a reason. To remember a place or a resemblance of a place. I appreciate that a person actually took their time to look for a suitable souvenir from their tight schedule and willing to pay the extra money to get something for you rather than spend the money on themselves.

And I also realize something. It's call growing up. I'm growing up, or in other word, becoming slightly more mature compare to the old me.

I'm getting older....

Bad dream

I had a dream last night, a bad dream, not a nightmare, just a bad, bad dream.

In my dream, I was driving a car. At first I was driving straight like all the other cars at the road, towards one direction.

Suddenly the scene changed, and I was driving in the opposite direction from other cars. There is car driving towards me but since I’m at the wrong side of the road, I have to sway to prevent being hit by all the cars.

It was difficult trying to control the car while trying to keep away from hitting other cars. But the dream didn’t end there. The last part of my dream was suddenly I was driving towards a large vehicle, like a bulldozer. I manage to sway away from hitting it’s big tyre but then while I was trying to drive away from the big obstables, the bulldozer’s arm (The thing to scope the dirt) come from the sky straight towards my car and I can’t escape it no matter how fast I drive.

And my dream ends with the darkness from above coming down towards me, engulfing me.

I think this dream reflects what is happening right now in my life. In certain part, I’m feeling like I lose control my life. I do not hold the key of my life anymore and I hate this feeling of helplessness. There is a certain part of my life I want to change desperately, or at least get out from it, and I had try but failed. It’s like I walked and dropped into a deep hole. And I try my best to try to climb out from the hole by myself. But without help from the people outside the hole, it seems like I just fall back right into the hole again while trying my hardest to climb out. After falling down countless of time, I’m currently in the “lost hope” state. I’m giving up. I’m tired of trying. Maybe I will stay inside this black hole for god know how many years.

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My mood today: Sigh....

Suddenly, this song went through my head

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone

Thinking of you till it hurts

I know you hurt too but what else can we do

Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile and my heart

For times when my life feels so low

It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring

When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know


Chorus:

I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right believing for so long

I 'm all out of love, what am I without you

I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong


I want you to come back and carry me home

Away from this long lonely nights

I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too

Does the feeling seem oh so right

And what would you say if I called on you now

And said that I can't hold on

There's no easy way, it gets harder each day

Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone


Chorus

Oh, what are you thinking of?

What are you thinking of?

Oh, what are you thinking of?

What are you thinking of?