Saturday, March 21, 2009

To do or not to do... Life is difficult sometimes

Sometimes, I just don't have any interesting update at all, like now. And I really salute those who can post 2~3 entries per day. It's seems like my life is just boring.. Or is it that I lost my initial desire for blogging after blogging for a year plus?

Born under the star of Cancer, I have to admit, my love or my interest or my passion usually don't last long. When it first started, the feeling is intense. Like when I first decided to blog, I have to write a post everyday, sometimes writting the blog in Miscrosoft Word or Notepad, then copy and paste it in my blog when the colleagues sitting next to me is not noticing. But now, even during my off day when I'm online, I just don't feel like writing at all.

Maybe at first blogging was a way for me to express my feeling. To express the anger that I felt, the "tulan"ness of working, the helplessness of life, or the bias way of life. However, as time passes, my blog is not as private as I hope it would be in the first place. Now, not only my friends are reading this blog, but some of the colleagues too, whom I prefer to keep some of the stuff I am going to write here a secret from them.

I did think about creating a new blog, but then how about this blog? Do I still maintain this blog and tell about daily activity which I can share with others and another blog where only a certain group of people can access? But then I know myself... I'm not a person with very strong determination. I know I won't be able to care for two blogs at the same time without ignoring one of it.

So, in the end, I decided to maintain the current blog. However, nothing too private anymore in this blog as I'm afraid some of the post might actually offend someone.

Hmmm.. an update of my weekend. Am reading the book Angels & Demons by Dan Brown at the moment. Remember the author of the book Da Vinci Code? I am totally engross with the book now. The only non-prefect thing is that the book is actually in softcopy. Which mean I need to open the laptop in order to read it. I wont be able to read it lying down in my bed before bedtime in comfort. Well, that's the only complain I had at the moment considering that I got that book for free, which mean I don't have to pay a single cent to read this book. Guess, I have to be content with it at the moment. Until I'm rich (or financially independent), then I can buy any books that I like without waiting for the Popular bookshop to have sales or applying for the membership card.

Ya, sometimes, life s_cks. Just accept it...


I wonder what is happening to me? Too much stress recently? Or is it money not enough? Or is it finally I realize that the world is harsh?

2 comments:

Rose world said...

Read all Dan Brown's books in soft copies. Psst! Forwarded by a friend and read them in front of pc during office hours. hahahah! Those days life in office is boring and nothing much to do....

RaiNboW said...

Haha.. I try to but my boss is sitting right behind me. A bit hard to curi curi read in the office..